water is not wine.

I’m on my third day without a drink, and I’ve realized that I both love and freaking despise water.

My first day without a drink–the day that I wrote the introductory post to this little experiment–went relatively smoothly.  I drank probably six glasses of water, felt strong and inspired, and was surprised at how energetic and focused I felt when I crawled into bed.

And I slept like a log-shaped brick.

I slept so hard, in fact, that I slept an hour and a half past my alarm, and I had to get ready for work and out the door in fifteen minutes.  I felt like I was nineteen again–oversleeping yet well-rested, frantic yet spry.

But nothing is ever that easy, is it?

After work yesterday, all I wanted was a glass of wine.  Or a beer.  Or a third glass of wine.  But when I arrived at home, I drank a bottle of water instead, which was equal parts fine and irritating.

I don’t think that my desire for a glass of wine was indicative of an underlying dependence on alcohol, but rather a dependence on routine.  I’ve grown accustomed to having a glass of wine with dinner, or cracking a beer and tossing my keys on the counter with dramatic flair after a frustrating day at work.  And without such little indulgences, I felt a little lost.

To be perfectly honest, I actually pulled out a Shiner Ruby Red Bird to have with dinner, thinking that no one would ever know.  I could just delete the first post and pretend like I never started this experiment.  But as I was preparing my meal, I kept sneaking glances at the unopened bottle of beer on the counter.  And I couldn’t do it.  Even though pretty much no one has seen the initial post, I still felt accountable.  What if, by some off-chance, someone who read the first post actually came back to see how I was doing?  What if they saw that I had removed the first post and decided to try something else instead as my “first” experiment?  I’m bigger than that.  I put the beer away and pulled out a La Croix instead.

So today, I picked up a 12-pack of Dr. Pepper on my way home from work.  I need a little flavor.  Water just isn’t cutting it.  But I’m on my third day, and today is easier than yesterday.

That’s all anyone can hope for, right?

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3 thoughts on “water is not wine.

  1. I recommend a soda siphon. Mix in a little orange juice or squeeze in some lime and you get flavor, without having to drink a whole can. Pays for itself quickly and fewer chemicals!

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